Never in my life

So this morning my bf or should I now ex bf was at hotel and he took a pic of me naked so I asked him to delete it because I am not comfortable with it (I have body issues) and plus I don’t allow anyone and I mean anyone to have any videos or pictures of me in any compromising way and he knows why (not saying he is going to leak them or anything) plus I have send him sexy pictures but nothing too out there and I am always fully dressed. Needless to say he didn’t like that I told him that and started comparing him self to my ex (not once of them has any type of taken any takes of photo of me but one tried blackmail me say that he has those type of photos I tried as usual to resolve the issue some what this morning before we left but he claim that he is good and understands ( but I knew he was lying but I didn’t push it) fast forward when went about our day did what he had to do then part ways. The whole time I just felt off like something is wrong with me I don’t know what it is/was but I just know I didn’t have to energy to fake a smile or deal with other people so I decided to go to a hotel instead of staying home because if I stayed home me family would have kept asking what’s wrong and I didn’t know what to tell them. He came over to my house right as I was leaving and started asking me where am I going I told him the town where I was going but not place. Just wanted space from everyone including him (even though I was gonna tell him where I was after like and hour of two being there by myself) he got mad and walked away. I tried finding out my he come over went he told me he will see me tomorrow but nope he just started with the attitude, getting angry so I walked away and he left on my drive he kept calling and calling but I finally answered he then all shit hits the fan. I am emotionally blackmail him, blah blah blah, none of my exes treated me like his does blah blah blah. Home boy decided to drive me down and confront me in the parking lot where I was going to stay and let’s just say there was yelling, shaking, shoving, hand grabbing and now I have to deal with the police because someone in the hotel called the police and told them I am a victim of domestic violence. I never thought for once that my name would ever be used in the same sentence as domestic violence victim but now here I am just because I need a few hours to myself. I didn’t press charges because I was the one shoving him out of my face but I didn’t definitely end the relationship, told him to stay away from me and my family, blocked and deleted his phone number and every ways he has of contacting me. Is fucking sad because this was the man I was planing on moving in with next month, planned on having babies with was about the start the TTC journey in 5 months, was about to open a whole bank account with, spend almost two years of my life with, done shit for that I have done for anyone else, and so on.

** side note (not that’s it matters anymore)***

This is not my first time leaving home for space without tell anyone but I always call him after like 3 hours and let him know where I am and that I left a key with the front desk and I usually only do that when I am feeling overwhelmed by people and/or can’t explain what’s happening to me but feel like I need a break from people and yes I do see a psychology and I have been for years.