Idk if my marriage can be saved...

Me and my husband are literally on the brick of a divorce and idk if our marriage can be saved. Me and him have fought so much for the last year and a half. It goes with me yelling at him, him yelling back. He calls me a bitch. I tell him I hate him. A hole gets punched in the wall. I can't even tell you how much damage this apartment has. We aren't getting our deposit back if we move out. I felt taken advantage of because he never helps around the house and just makes messes worse. We don't have kids but we both work and I'm a part time student. He for some reason thinks he doesn't have to help clean. We fight over dumb things. We don't spend time together because he wants to play video games. We just have a lot of issues.

A couple weeks ago I cheated... I'm not proud of it. I hate myself for it. I didn't tell him right away because I was confused. The person I cheated with, I had feelings for and I was just so confused. I decided to pick my marriage and I really was going to come clean and tell him the truth, but the person beat me to it. He found out I cheated because the guy sent him a picture of my panties at his house and said in text "tell your wife to come get her underwear ". We didn't even fight. He just left. He came back and has been sleeping in the living room since. I've apologized profusely. I asked if we can talk about it and he says he doesn't want to talk about it. He left an hour and a half ago to go to the shooting range. I've tried to call to check up on him but he sends me to voice-mail. We haven't really talked since he found out. We just exist with each other now. He will walk in the kitchen to get something to eat and not say a thing to me. I fucked up. Maybe its too late to save our marriage but if there's even the smallest chance we can, could someone plz give me some advice.

The thing about punching holes in the wall, it wasn't just him. I also put holes in the wall.

To answer the question of why I want to save my marriage... It's because I miss how we used to be and I want to get back to that. We had so much love for each other at one point... I guess things fell apart after we lost our son... He was a premie and he was doing good, but he got pneumonia and died in my husband's arms and I wasn't there before he died.. After that is when we kind of started to slowly turn on each other and things just completely fell from there... I want us to have the love we once have. I still love him. I really do