Will it ever be my time?

Not sure if this is the correct place to post, so I'm sorry if it's not but I didn't know where else to go.....

I have cried all night again at the news of a family members pregnancy. I am so happy for them, but it just pains me so deep inside, and I can't bare to do anything but cry. This news never gets any easier, and I feel awful when it should be a happy occasion. My boyfriend doesn't understand. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this 😢