Vaginal issues

Hey eve, I'm new here. Umm so I don't know how to actually talk about things but I'll try.

I have a really really big phobia of stds, so I'm a virgin I've never done anything but kiss someone and get hickeys oh and dry hump BUT we both had our clothes on and this was 2years ago.

Ever since I can remember I've always had issues with my vagina 1. It's so ugly, dark,wrinkled and I have a big labia 2. I always got yeast infections or something

I used to have recurrent thrush (yeast infections ) for as long as I can remember and medicine never worked, it used to work for a week and come back, that now I don't even know what's normal anymore , this has been happening for 4/3 years And every time went to the doctors they would prescribe me Fluconzale and cansten ( I don't know how to spell it ) but nothing worked.

For a while now I've been having a smelly discharge ( not fish but just off.) sometimes I can even smell myself through my pants, the discharge used to be white/brown/grey, everyday new thing. When I went to the doctors ( which took me A long time to actually go to because of covid and them not caring ) the doctor said that my discharge looks like just hormones and my cycle, and as for the itch and pain she would check me, when she did she said my vagina looks normal and these are just follucilitus and something about glands and she was more worried about my "ocd and phobia of stds"

But if you open my labia and look, inside the lips at the upper part there's a line that's symmetrical filled with a line of white big bumps. It doesn't hurt to touch but when I spread my labia to look at what it is, they look so big. ( it's only one side ) on my right lip next to my clit. It's like a few big bumps that look bigger when spread but only one side and in a straight line there's like 8-9 of them or maybe even more but it's only one area and not the full labia. Not the entire right lip has it only on the upper side

I don't think she saw them because she doesn't even care she kept saying she has other patients and I'm just paranoid and this is more of a "issues with how your vagina looks like "

But for a while every time I've called the doctors, and tell them when I sit or be doing something my vagina randomly hurts and I can't go sleep sometimes because I have this throbbing pain on one side of my labia and next day it would be on the other side , or when I tell them I have a smelly discharge , pain, and itchyness they would just say they will book me in for an appoinment but when I do have my appointment it's with another doctor because " their schedule is busy " and then I have to talk to another doctor Again about everything

When I press on a certain part of my right labia it hurts, my entire vagina itches,

(Inside the lips ) and

when I open/spread my labia lips and press on my right lips/labia ( i dont know what it's called ) it would hurt so bad and feel sore it's around one area and it's really starting to scare me. Oh and my right labia lips inside itches really bad, and if I was to look there and spread my lips to see what's going on down there it would also hurt to do that ,

What should I do? Please help me? The doctors aren't taking me serious I know she said there's nothing wrong with my vagina and she doesn't see yeast or smell anything but it was only because I showered before going to my appoinment because I couldn't handle the smell nor discharge, she said that my vagina looks normal but I don't think she even cared and looked properly :( these bumps are scaring me and my right labia also, why does it hurt me to press there and itch me and why do I have a symmetrical straight line of white bumps that are big inside my labia on the right :(

She even said that I have a really big labia and it made me hate my vagina more then I already do, she said it hangs (because one part hangs) and it's really big and it nearly made me cry, even the part that hangs is wrinkled and dark and has tiny small dark /skin/brown/white skin colored bumps on there that doesn't hurt to touch .

Like I mentioned before I have a phobia of stds,

SO THESE SKIN COLOURED BROWN/WHITE BIG BUMPS THAT LOOK BIGGER WHEN I SPREAD MY LIPS ARE REALLY STARTING TO SCARE ME WHY ARE THRY ONLY ON ONE SIDE AND NOT EVEN ON MY ENTIRE SIDE THERES ONLY A FEW PF THRM IT DOESNT EVEN Go to the end of my labia/lip. It's literally a straight line of skin coloured big white/brown bumps that stops in the middle. And then the down part of my right labia hurts to press on or touch and itches. I don't know how to explain sorry I'm going on and on about my vagina.

I just wanna cry I'm so frustrated. I hate my entire vagina I just wanna be normal , idek what's going down there :(