The past few days have been really hard for me. My boyfriend and I moved in together about a month ago, and I’ve never been more irritated with him. He disgusts me. Doesn’t pick up after himself. Plays vg all damn day. Hardly showers. I’ve been trying to leave the house more but it’s hard because I hate the public and we have no money. I can’t bring myself to leave him because he can’t go home and he doesn’t have anyone to go to. Our relationship has been very toxic at times. Our most recent mishap started over the dumbest thing and morphed into me telling him I cheated on him and he beat the fuck out of me... then proceeded to beg me not to leave him. I pray every day that god will get him out of my life.

He’s dragging me down. I’ve never felt this low in my life. I take Zoloft, and I’ve been thinking lately that it could be part of my problem. I used to be really attracted to him. I had a high libido, but now I have no desire for sex or even just snuggling with him. I don’t know if it’s disgust with myself for what I did to him or what. The reason I slept with the other person was to get back at him for hitting me... but obviously it backfired.

I’m constantly exhausted. I have no desire to work, and I feel like I’m raising a child. He’s a senior in high school, and hasn’t gone to school for the past week because he’d rather stay home and play video games all day. I’m losing my mind with him because he just won’t grow up and act like an adult. But his parents refuse to help him because he can be an asshole at times. I just don’t know what to do.