I’ve been back to work over 8 months now and I’m still struggling with the return, figuring where I fit in, reassessing my career goals, still dealing with a lot of bias and inbalances in life - and I’m 11 weeks pregnant, haven’t told work yet and extremely nervous, almost to the point where I wish I wasn’t pregnant. It’s pretty terrible that I feel this way, this pregnancy was a natural surprise (first was <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>) and I feel like things, including my career would just be easier if I wasn’t pregnant. Sometimes I feel like I’ve committed career suicide by getting pregnant again so soon.

Not sure what I’m looking for, but am I crazy to feel this way and how to overcome this?