Getting rid of small clothes

So over the past few years I’ve gained about 50 lbs but I haven’t accepted the fact that I’m over weight so I haven’t been able to let go of my small clothes in hopes that I’ll be small again. I’ve also had trouble with living my life to the fullest. I always have it in my mind that I’ll dress nice when I lose weight or I’ll do my makeup and hair and get all dolled up once I lose weight but until then I’ll tie my hair back and live in sweats. It’s such a hard mindset to break but I’m starting to think maybe it would be freeing to part with my small clothes and letting go of the past. I still see myself as this tiny size xsmall person and can’t picture myself the way I am right now at all. Maybe I can start to focus on becoming a new me, a healthy me who’s working on self love and fitness. I want to accept myself for who I am not matter how big I am. But I’m struggling with this.

Does anyone else have any experience in this? How do you cope? I hat motivated you and inspired you? Was hanging on to small “goal weight” clothing doing more harm than good?

Like my husband says, once I lose the weight am I really going to go back to

That hun of small shirts and pants or am I going to buy myself new clothes that are in style and make me feel good.