I Want OUT!!

He cheated last year and I have done my BEST to forgive him!!

I recently found out that back in early February he was back in contact with this same woman!! Not only that talked so badly about me behind my back about our disagreements and ALL!! Things that when the dust settled he didn't open up and tell me!! His wife!!

A week ago his aunt passed away.

After everything was revealed last year... soon after, his father passed. Well, today after 3 weeks of him being distant and silent with me... He tells me he wants to go our separate ways but isn't sure yet.

Few hours later he receives news that his sister lost her baby!! Late term pregnancy loss. She's wanted this child for so long you guys.

I text and called him and he ignored me. I finally gave it one last try to call and he finally answered being really short with me and rude!! I didn't take it personally and instead asked if his sister was okay and he blurts out that he was talking to his mom and hung up.

I don't want to be selfish here and I want to be here for him but honestly I fucking hate him for cheating AND lying once caught and the nerve to treat me like I did somethingwrong! I wish I wasn't so blinded by love that I ignored his cheating habits and now I feel obligated to stay while he goes through this. Thing is, I don't mind doing it. Not because I hope it'll bring us closer together or for some form of repayment but because I love him. 😔

I'm a fool in love! Here it is after 10p.m. and none of his family is answering for me. I'm not calling them to ask about him but to check on them individually. I would think HE would update me seeing as he still isn't home!!

I just want out!!

I feel like a rock in a hard place. Making sure he's okay all the while suffering because a mere hours before he said he wanted to leave me. We weren't arguing or anything remotely close to fighting. It was so random and heartless (because it happened via text).

Anyway, just wanted to vent

Update: We're married, so of course I reached out to see if everyone is okay. I was taken aback when noone answered...leading me to believed he has already told his family that it's over between us. He probably told them before he told me. I don't know. If that's considered chasing him then so be it. I'm not a cold heartless person. I did want to make sure that he was okay.