Need a rant!!

Since my best friend fell pregnant I have been so supportive all the while crying in my own time and crying myself to sleep most nights with the depression of ttc for 4 years (2 chemicals). But I cannot take any more I posted before about a comment my friend made when we were talking about pregnancy not long after she fell, I said to her it’s hard watching everyone around you fall pregnant while I’m struggling to conceive and she said “aww yeah I forgot about that” (that being my infertility)!! I was so upset and posted here with a few people saying she obviously doesn’t mean it she’s so excited and happy for herself (trust me I know that) but the most recent comment was “you think getting that positive test is hard mother instinct kicks in and you worry about this and that” I’m sorry but I can’t take anymore of it don’t care what anyone says she knows what she’s doing now this is only a couple of a few shocking things she’s said to me. This one really ached my heart yes actually getting that positive is fucking hard don’t underestimate that for a start and yeah I noticed the mother instinct when I was pregnant fucking twice!!!!!! Apologies if this upsets anyway but I really need a rant I’m so alone and I don’t even have support from my best friend 👎🏻☹️