I’m the kind of girl who will cry all week and one night I want to reach out.

I’ll message one of my friends late at night asking if they want to chat. I’m ready to tell them I’m not okay. But I always reach out to the same people. And they’ll ask me “hey is everything all g” and I’ll freeze up. I just can’t say anything other than “yeah I’m good xD hru” and every time. They say they’re not okay. And I’m sitting there crying giving a therapy session to the friend I just wanted help from but couldn’t ask for it.

I just wish sometimes people would just know me enough or care for me enough to just ask a second time and double check. Or say. I know you’re not alright.

I know it sounds selfish and petty xD but I’m not alright and I’ve lost so many relationships with people over the last year and. I want someone who loves me.