Has anyone ever felt distant and alone being with their husband? We are newly weds. I and a half months. My husband picks arguments with me, laughs at me, yells at me. Does not pray with me, sometimes won’t go to church with me. If he does, he sometimes falls asleep. If we watch church from him he will fall asleep or get on the computer or put his hands in his pants and try to get sexy time during church time. He broke my glass cup that was a wedding gift. I cooked for him, he threw it in the trash and broke the ceramic bowl the food was in. I was so alarmed I grabbed my phone and ran to lock myself in the bathroom and didn’t come out until he left for work that night. Around everyone else he is so different which is why I like other people to hang out with us. They would never suspect he is so mean, enraged, and manipulative behind closed doors. I never told anyone cuz I didn’t even think they would believe me. He has them all fooled so well. But that night I locked myself in the bathroom not knowing if I would call 911, the mobile mental health crisis hotline, or family. I ended up contacting his brother, who was aware of my husband’s temper but did not know he would start breaking stuff. His brother stayed on the phone with me for almost an hour even tho he was at work.

Other times my husband can be really sweet but when he is, it gives me anxiety because I think “what is he doing? Why is he being nice? When is he going to click out on me again?” He will be nice just enough to get me to open back up again, just enough and then he switches up. We talked to the pastor before we got married and that was great. But outside of that, he is different at home. And kinda manipulative. Idk this man. He isn’t the man I fell in love with.

UPDATE

someone asked for an update.

Lots of time has passed. I posted that 1.5 months into the marriage. Long story short: caught him watching porn a couple months later into marriage, At around 1 year in, My husband raped me. I was asleep but woke up during. He then threatened divorce then took it back then said I deserve bad things to happen to me. I was later admitted to the psych ward after my husband came home one morning after church and had difficulties waking me up. I had taken a bit too much NyQuil and codine intentionally. I was medicated after that. At some point I did individual therapy and we did couples therapy and he promised to be better. We are still married. We got a dog. We are doing better than before and year 3 is coming up. He’s going to take me on a nice honeymoon since we didn’t really have one.