Why am I so ugly?

I just wonder what is it about me that make me so fucking ugly?? I’ve reconnected with this guy that I’ve known since middle school so about 10 years and I asked him out and he was ecstatic. But he told me he works a lot and will let me know soon when we can go. Meanwhile every time I text him he leave all my messages on read and watch all my Instagram stories and post on his pictures and videos of him hanging out with his friends like everyday. I recently messaged him asking him to be upfront with me so I stop wasting my time and he swore he wants to go out with me. We talked all night long last night. In our convo I call him cute and all that and he never says that he thinks I’m cute or beautiful but he said he wants to go out tonight. Well after that he hasn’t responded to my messages I sent him two confirming our plans and is completely ignoring me.

Should I lost him know I’m done with the games and want no parts anymore? Why am I a ugly that I can’t even get a guy to gout with me? I’m 23 and have never been in a relationship. This is just the one guy I’ve brought up but I have so many stories of men who have called me ugly to my face or have completely ignored me. How do I be some prettier so guys will like me? When will I be enough for someone? Honestly who was I to think a guy would actually like me and want I date me? That’s what I get for being stupid