Hi ladies,

So a couple weeks ago I matched with a guy on a dating app. The second I saw his profile I felt like I was shocked. He was 100% my type and there was something about him that spoke to me. He reached out and we chatted casually for a few days, kinda boring conversations tbh but he asked me out and I asked to facetime before we went out. The phone conversation went really well but I was so scared and nervous because already I really liked him and i never ever felt that way before. The one time I came close I ended things with the guy because I was too nervous. So I go out on a first date with him and it goes pretty well, barely any awkward silences. There are some moments that I felt a little less excited but overall I did feel like I liked him. The second date initially I thought was also good, we went walking around the park but I was a lot more closed off. I didnt speak much or ask him questions. I was just responding to his questions and asking them back. Overall it was a nice date because he was pretty to look at but in terms if conversation it was okay, I could've been better and I accept the full responsibility. the end of the date he walks me 10 min out of his way to the bus and then waits with me 20 min in the heat for the bus to come even though I told him multiple times he doesnt have to wait. When the bus finally comes I told him I had a great time and he looked at me surprised and then said oh ya me too and that struck me as odd until I thought back and realized that with his closed off I was I probably didnt seem like I enjoyed. But I definitely got the feeling that he liked me and could tell he was attracted to me by finding excuses to touch me and walking so close. I could even tell he was nervous in the beginning and had trouble making sye contact when he was talking but was very attentive and was fully present in every conversation ( not like some guys I've went out with who were distracted.) But then the next day he texts me and said he had fun on our dates but he doesnt see this going anywhere. He felt like st was missing and that we arent the right fit. A part of me knew it was coming based off how blah I was on the date (also it was 80 degrees with no water or bathroom). I asked him what he felt was missing and he said that he usually tries to be polite and put his best foot forward and hopefully he could be himself and that te other person would as well but he didnt get the sense from our dates. I explained that I agree and I wasnt really myself but I am new to online dating and I also didnt know how serious he was taking it. I thought maybe he just wants to date slowly get to know someone, maybe even just a hookup but I couldn't get a read on him. Anyways I responded and he just said I appreciate your honesty it's good to know what your feelings were. Seeing him use past tense made me assume he was completely over me so I just wished him luck and the next day he texted me back good luck as well but now I'm second guessing it. Should I reach back out and ask him to give me another shot. It was only two dates, how open do you expect me to be? Or should I just move on even though he was everything I wanted and a part of me worries I'll never find someone who will tick all of my boxes. Also I know there was a lot of things making me guarded and one of them was how much I was attracted and liked him and i definitely got the sense he felt the same. Maybe he was nervius/ excited more than usual like I was and that's why wr both weren't ourselves and it wasnt a chemistry thing. Idk in my opinion chemistry develops over time and we had something but not a lot but we only went out twice for three hours a piece. Idk. I'm very conflicted if I should reach out or not. I wish he reaches out to me and asks to try again. Finger crossed and please pray that he does.