Stuck in the middle 🥴🥴

I for sure 110% want a baby, that I know for a fact despite everything that scares me about having a child there’s nothing more in the world I want more than to become a mommy. 🥺 However TTC has gotten to the point where it’s emotionally defeating me. I have only been trying 7 months I know for some that might not sound long but it just feels like forever since I’ve been wanting a child for years before I even started to try & I also had a chemical last month which I feel set me back even more. I’m not stuck between wanting a baby & not wanting a baby BUT I am stuck between wanting to stop “trying/tracking” & wanting to continue tracking. It kind of upsets me more knowing I had sex at the right time & still didn’t conceive. I know for so many women it just comes so natural, a girl I went to school with is pregnant with her 5th child & she literally said she could sneeze & get pregnant, none of them were planned. My partner already has 2 children from a previous relationship & wants more with me but I feel like even with that situation it’s not like he doesn’t already have some (which are blessings that I love as my own as well) so he already is a dad & doesn’t have to fear never being a parent. I’m wanting to stop tracking to prevent myself from being so discouraged after so many negatives & so many periods but at the same time I hate not having some kind of log that tells me when I’m ovulating, I listen to my body but that doesn’t always pinpoint it directly. My cycles are regular so it’s very possible I could conceive without tracking but idk, a part of me does like knowing what’s going on & where I am in my cycle. 😔 Did any of you ladies give up trying & it happened? Or have you considered it?