Ok so I started drinking arojnd the beginning of pendemic of corona virus , normally I wouldn’t drink but for some reason this virus pendemic really messed with me , and drove me to smoke a large amount of cigarettes and drink party size bottles of liquor n beer every time I had the chance , if you ask me that is how I made it threw this pendemic , well now I’m pregnant I have quit cold turkey of liquor and cigarettes witch 💯 saved my life , but yet I’m withdrawing I wake up in sweat and sometimes the withdrawal is so bad I pass out , I shake ijust know that when this is all over it gone be worth it bc ima have a beautiful baby in the end and I know with God and prayer anything is possible and I refuse to be a bad mother who choose those things instead of withdrawing and being a woman it seems like the harder it fights me n the erge n withdrawal the harder I fight back it isn’t easy by no means BUT WITH ALOT OF PRAYER , FAITH , GOD I can and will over come this feelin . And it will be so worth it bc my baby will be healthy and happy in the end ! And no one can ever say I was the cause of this or that because infact I am fighting so hard to prevent any thing that could a cure . So I’m staying strong and ima get my Bible out tonight and pray !! 💝 can’t wait bc the end is worth everything !!