12dpo and tested negative. Currently feeling like my period is going to start soon. This month I tried not to think about it. I tried to be extra positive and relax. I am left disappointed, frustrated and sad. When I had my miscarriage last august I truly didn’t think my TTC journey would last this long because we got pregnant so fast the first time. I told myself it will happen before the due date of our baby we miscarried. March passed and its so hard acting like nothing is wrong. I can’t help but feel I should have a 3month old baby at this point.

I have to remind myself nothing is in my control and I need to let it be.

TTC is truly horrible sometimes.