TTC need to vent

Here’s my story, let me just say I have 4 healthy beautiful daughters ages 17,16,12 and 9 and me and my boyfriend have been ttc for 5 months, granted it’s not that long but it feels like an eternity. But anyways we’ve gotten pregnant twice 1 in March- chemical and 1 in April- I’m assuming a regular miscarriage, hcg levels were rising but dropped within a week, can you say devastated, that’s an understatement. We tried last month ovulated normally, we bd everyday- he’s a horn ball 😩😩😩.. But we didn’t get pregnant, so devastating. So I’ve purchased preseed hopefully it’ll help his sperm maybe not.. I’ve had blood work done, multiple ultrasounds, thyroid check.. My ob said since I’ve had 5 normal pregnancy- 1 abortion 7 years ago don’t judge and I’m pretty healthy, just to keep trying. So hopefully this is our month.. Baby dust to everyone, just needed to vent!!