How do you deal with your severe depression?

I’ve been dealing with it for 14 years but it never gets any easier. I’ve been unable to get out of bed for the most part of my day.

I spend about 8-10 hours in bed. I only get up to use the restroom, let my dogs go potty, and make my bf lunch when he comes home from work. After those things which is usually about 12pm-1pm, I go back to bed to rest and/or sleep.

I did manage to eat some Cheetos after I woke up at 7-8 am. Around noon I had a bowl of ramen and then when I woke up at 3, I had a kid sized chocolate milk and then went back to sleep.

I’ve been awake since 5:30 pm and I am exhausted. I have a bed made on the couch and am hoping my bf won’t mind me not making dinner. I just can’t do it. He doesn’t understand depression in the slightest so it can be extremely hard for me to co exist with him during these times.

He just thinks I’m miserable living with him or that I hate him and I don’t.

So during your hardest depression bouts... does anything help you?