Losing my mind help please

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I’m getting very frustrated and am crying as I write this I am trying my hardest to breast feed but I’ve had so many set backs my son had a severe lip and tongue tie devised I have extremely flat nipples so I have to use a special monster nipple shield and he has to see the chiropractor due to severe tension in the body from the lip and tongue tie and I’m getting so mad at the smallest things why the fuck does milk leak out of my boob I am feeding him from all down my shirt it seems stupid but i get so Fucking mad because itsmilk he could’ve eaten what am I doing wrong not to mention I hate the feeling of milk all over me I have a LC I work with but I’m getting so mad its hard enough breast feeding without all these extra obstacles including this monster shield what am I doing wrong