I feel like no one ever likes me

I used to be quite confident and happy and made lots of friends. Then I realised that no one really cares about me, when close family member died no one ever messaged me, no one ever invites me out unless I do it, I never get calls or texts

I’m so lonely and now I’m constantly self conscious that the people in my life hate me. They never really ask about me or show any interest in my life. Dating is a no go, guys just tell me I’m ugly i know they’re joking but it upsets me. My crushes never like me back and I never get asked out. I always get rejected when I ask guys out myself. And even when I have nice dates, they ghost me

In friendship groups, I’m always left out. People in my houseshare leave the room when I enter so I have no one to talk to. Someone said they were uncomfortable when I accidentally brushed past them the other day which upset me.

I’m a friendly girl, a bit quiet (used to be chattier but developed fear of being annoying). I don’t know why all this is happening to me when I try my best to be a kind person, I always show interest in people and never get anything back. I’m not clingy either as I have a fear of being needy.