Idk what I'm feeling. I have been friends with this guy since we were 11 years old, we are 29 now. When we were younger my cousin introduced us trying to set us up. We were young so we didn't actually date but we became inseparable. We were together every day. He got a gf and it didn't last for a few months but when they broke up he stayed with me and cried in my lap for two days. My mom packed us up and took us to Dollywood to make him feel better. There is where we kissed for the first time. We were 12 at this point. We stayed inseparable every day until we were 15 and he moved across the country. We still texted everyday tho. He moved back about 3 years ago he was married and had a child and I was as well. We hung out the second he got back tho. Fast forward to a year after he moved back. Him and his wife split and he and I ended up having sex, yes I was still married. I told my husband and he didn't even care he told menhe figured it would happen eventually. Well since that day we still talked every day and hung out at least 1 time a month. He owns his own company so he travels and is very busy. Now we talk maybe 1 time a week and see each other maybe every 2 months but we always pick up like we were never apart. My husband and I did split up last year due to him falling in love with a co-worker which I fully supported. I love my "husband" and always will but we just weren't meant to be. His co-worker is of the same sex so our marriage wouldn't have worked if we'd have tried to work through it before anyone says anything lol. Anyways. Yesterday I hung out with my friend again and we did absolutely nothing but ride around and talk and I couldn't. Stop looking at him, wanting to be close to him etc I have NEVER felt the way I did in that jeep yesterday. It was like I felt unconditionally happy and safe and like nothing else in the world was even there if that makes any since and before we left he hugged me and I swear my hole body went numb. Idk. Idk what the feelings are. I am so confused. Advice please.