He called me by his ex’s name

He woke up and cuddled me and said “I love you Maci” which is not my name.

It’s his baby mommas name. So I of course was like okay wow, but then was just going to go back asleep and I rolled over and he was like “I’m so sorry I love you I’m so sorry.” Like laying on top of me and I’m like this is way too much like it’s 5am just let me go back to sleep.

He gets up, starts screaming. I mean full on screaming and let me remind you this is my house, I let him sleep over last night and I’m just sitting here half asleep while he screams at me at the top of his lungs about “how he’s going through things and worried about his child and I need to be patient with him while he works it out because he’s not okay mentally.”

And then I’m like why are you doing this? Like why are you screaming? I get that you’re going through things but it’s not a reason to scream like this.” IM NOT SCREAMING. SHUT THE FUCK UP.” and I was like “do not ever tell me to shut the fuck up in my own house.”

Then he’s like “I’m leaving!” And I’m like “okay” so he grabs all his shit, I watch him do it so he doesn’t take any of my shit and he was like “all I ask is that you leave me alone for 10 minutes but you wouldn’t shut up.” And I said “all I said was don’t tell me to shut the fuck up at 5 am in my own damn house and because I asked you why you were screaming in my face.”

“Get out of my house dude.”

“I WOULD IF YOUD SHUT YOUR WHORE MOUTH.” And I was like “believe me, once you walk out of my door you’ll never hear from me again. Bet.”

“You’re breaking up with me?”

Lmfao

“yOuRE bReAKiNG uP wItH mE.”

Lmfaooo bitch what it look like. Get out.

I have never ever seen him act like that. Ever. That was insanity, that was so weird how he called me by his baby mommas name and I wasn’t even that bothered by it honestly I just didn’t want him all up on me after it. I was not even mad, just shocked and grossed out. Then he gets up and acts like a fucking bafoon, swear to god it was like he was fighting with himself there because I was half asleep and said about 10 words just sitting there quietly and looking at him like “wtf.”

I’ve never done anything to this man. I’ve never mistreated him, I’ve never mistreated his child whom of which I’m going to miss like hell like I’m way more sad over that, I didn’t even do anything this morning to be treated like that other than saying I didn’t want to be cuddled. Actually I have literally done nothing through our entire relationship to get THAT. Nobody deserves that.

The men I bring around are absolute fucking psychopaths and I do NOT understand what I keep missing.

I figure it’s probably because I didn’t have a dad growing up maybe? Like I have no idea or guidance in what to look for in a man. I really do blame myself here now. There’s one thing in common in all of this, and it’s me.

No not all men are like this, and to expect them to all be fucking psychotic is a low standard and I am actually beating myself the fuck up right now for thinking I could actually pick a good man.

What’s great about him is that he met all of the criteria people are mentioning and is still a psychopath. I have been through so many shitty men that I raised my standards big time, this man is seemingly perfect but I think men are just permanently emotionally constipated. I just want to meet someone who’s right in the head, who thinks logically and not like an immature child. I’m tired of temper tantrums.

Like I sit and self reflect on what I had done but all I said to this man before he freaked out was “I don’t want to cuddle. You just called me maci” and I rolled over. I keep replaying in my head me just sitting up and looking at him in shock because he took the fact that he just messed up and called me by his baby mommas name and made it my fault because I wouldn’t cuddle him. By golly if I don’t wanna cuddle after being “I love you maci.” when my name is not maci.

Eat my ass, go eat macis ass, as long as it’s far away from me I’m good.

He is only 4 days apart in age from me and it’s like he’s 10 years behind, his baby momma has like completely lost all interest in him and I’ve always wondered why, now I know. He’s emotionally constipated and annoying