Curious and wanting to explore/Craving touch

Honestly I have been very horny for a lonnnngggg while and I have fantasies I want to explore but since I’ve been raped and abused by people I hesitate on engaging with others. I love sex but sex that I want and from the right people that respect me and my body. I don’t know how to go about exploring my fantasies. I fanastisize about women , I fantasize about threesomes with men. I fantasize about one night stands, I been all over the place with my sexuality. I want to go all out. It’s like I been hungry for sex. I spent a lot of time away from people that ( no sex for a long time ) now that I’ve had a taste of it again, I want it so bad. At this point, I’ll sleep with whoever because I’m that desperate for touch. Can anyone relate. ?