Is this PPD or am I just a bad mom ?

These past two days I just been feeling like I don’t want to be around my baby . I feel like I just want to get away from him and I don’t know why . I feel like I e failed as a mom already . I hate myself for feeling like this . He’s so cute and innocent and I feel like I’m not being there for him like I should be. Me and my bf keep arguing and I feel so angry about everything and I feel so exhausted and tired . My bf had him all day today because I just felt like I couldn’t be around him and sometimes when I look at him I cry . Sometimes I feel like maybe I’m just not meant to be a mom . I wanted him so bad . At first I really felt like my purpose in life was to be a mother. Now I feel like maybe I got myself into something I wasn’t meant for