Probably will sound like an attention whore but please no rudeness just genuinely looking for advice.

I’ve been with my fiancé for three years, and during the years we’ve had issues mostly communication. I’ve realized the communication is lacking so I’ve tried talking more to be open. Well it doesn’t really seem like it’s working or it might just be how I’m looking at it. Growing up I wasn’t really allowed to express how I felt so now as an adult I try to be more expressive.

I’m a stay at home mom so my life is pretty dull with the same routine like clean up, watch kid play in the living room, watch tv, add eating breakfast and lunch , and taking a nap when my kid sleeps. I’ve tried reaching out to people I use to call friends but they never really respond back. My mom belittles me and never admits it when I call her out on it. My other family is busy with their lives. My fiancé and I share one car which he uses to go back and forth to work. So the only adult interaction I have is him. Yes I know it sounds pretty pathetic.

I know I need therapy but I don’t really have insurance or the money to pay for one.

I know my fiancé works a lot but he doesn’t understand what it’s like to just be in four walls all damn day. Like all I want is someone that will have a freaking conversation with me. I ask him about work and his answers are dry. I try talking about the wedding planning and it’s dry. I ask him about other things and it’s the same dry tone.

So how do I not feel lonely because I am on the verge of just not caring. I’m trying to stay strong for my son and my soon to be born daughter. I feel like I’m about to walk through life like a zombie.