If I say I have trouble around men because if trauma I have women having my back, supporting me. Telling me its okay. Blah blah blah. But if I say I have trouble being around WOMEN because of trauma. I'm told I have internalized misogyny and am a terrible person who needs to get over my trauma. If a man causes my trauma I get sympathy. If a women caused my trauma I have to get over. The double standards my PTSD faces.

I want to be a survivor instead of a victim... It's just hard because... When I see my body.. I dont see it as my own anymore. I feel owned by people who did something awful to me. I feel trapped as a victim and that I can't get out..