relationship problems?

it’s hard to get advice from strangers about your relationship because you don’t know the ins and outs.

but my boyfriend and i have been together 2 years. we’re long distance. we see each other about every week or two weeks. he’s been in a relationship before. i haven’t. not a serious one anyway. so maybe i just don’t know how relationships are supposed to go?

recently we’ve been arguing a lotttt. i get it. arguments happen. but he’s been really irritable with me lately. within the past month, he’s said i’m annoying multiple times, i’m nagging him, he can’t stand to be around me anymore, he wants me to be a chill girlfriend, i’m “bitchin”, we were headed to atlanta and he told me to drop him off at the hotel and go home. that he didn’t want me there.

now remember y’all don’t know the ins and outs. there’s been little things i did he found annoying and just ticked him off. he says he said those things out of anger and they were just in the moment. but it hurt my feelings so bad. he’s a really really good boyfriend. he treats me like he loves me. but i don’t feel it anymore. i feel like the next time i see him i may not be able to act normal around him. i just don’t feel loved anymore. i feel like he knows how to love me with his actions out of habit but not emotionally.

i feel like i can’t be normal around him cause i might be annoying or nagging. i wanna feel like he wants me around.

i told him that but he says he just said those things out of anger and it was just in those moments that he felt it.