I’ve struggled with an ED since I was in 4th grade. My husband is more than aware of it (I’ve told him) over the years its been on and off. I’m overweight & I really struggle with that mentally.

I don’t really talk about it because I don’t even know what to say? When I’m in a bad place I try my best to hide it. Recently my fyp on Tiktok is COVERED in ED videos. I show my husband some and laugh them off saying how much I relate to them. (Starting to causally bring it up) In a month I’ve lost 16 pounds. I’m not doing well with it right now but I also don’t want “help”.. yes I need it and I know that. I’m just in the place mentally where I’m willing to do anything to lose.. When I told my husband how much weight I’ve lost he said “you’re really making progress” it’s not that he’s just an ass and wants me to lose weight… (he’s always trying to make me feel better about myself) I just don’t think he understands. I think he’s oblivious to it and doesn’t take it seriously because I’m not thin. He knows I’m wanting to lose weight but I don’t think he realizes I’m not eating. I want him to notice because I know I can’t pull myself out.. but I also can’t just say it. I don’t know… I feel like I’m going to get a lot of hate for this. To most people they just think “okay you know it’s wrong so stop” I’ve tried. I’ve had an ED for over half of my life… I was introduced to this before I even had my first period.