Back in early February i started taking progesterone to make my periods regular. I've always had irregular periods. Well i got my period mid February, which was so heavy and painful!! I had to change my pads a total of 15 times a day or more depending how heavy the flow was. I was diagnosed with Pcos around the end of January. The only reason I went in to get checked out was because we have been trying for almost 6 years ttc with no luck. So i got tired of hoping and decided to see a Dr. So come March 5th i had the faintest line, not visible in photos but visible in person. March 7th the line was darker and i was over loaded with joy. I knew i was pregnant because how tender my boobs were and how nauseous i was i just knew. Told my SO and then after 2 weeks we told our 2 kids. I had an appointment but wasn't until April, the clinic didn't want to see me til i was at least 8 weeks pregnant. Days after telling the kids the news i had woken up with cramps, the cramps didn't go away until almost 3hrs later. I noticed after using the restroom and wiping it was pinkish. I have read about implantation bleeding so i figured that's what it was. Come Monday march 22nd while at work i had to go to the bathroom. This time when I wiped it was bright red and it dripped in the toilet so there was a streak of red going down the toilet. I freaked out and cried thinking I'm have a miscarriage. I told a coworker about it and was crying in the process, and got the attention of another coworker (who was currently pregnant) she told the leader and the supervisor. They wanted to call an ambulance but i figured if it was miscarriage i might was well let it happen on its own. But as i got to the car i called my SO and he picked up. I just cried in his arms. I had to use the restroom so we stopped at a gas station, mostly because I felt something was coming out. So as i used the restroom i felt something splash in the water. While i got up the water was dark red. I just cried more and more as we got home. As i was laying down, i was getting cramps. Which again figured it was normal. It all started around 7am and the cramps didn't come until 11am but they got stronger and stronger to the point i barely wanted to lay down or walk. By then i was a little scared so i told my SO and he took me to the ER. As i waited the cramps only got stronger, i felt pain down my legs and my lower back and in my abdomen area of course. It was so terrible it seemed like i was going to give birth. I got checked in and they checked my cervix and did some blood work. Blood work came back negative, and my levels were low no where near enough to be pregnant(i didn't know this then). Dr came in and said it was a miscarriage due to a positive home pregnancy test. I bleed for a week after that. A few weeks later i would say a month later i felt my boobs so sore and tender as well as nauseous so i took a test and it came up positive. I was hesitant about it because of what had happened in March. I called the clinic and told them about what happened in March and the positive test i just had. She said it would be high risk so i need to talk to a nurse. Well i told nurse and she told me that if my levels where low and the blood work came back negative then i wasn't even pregnant. And i didn't know that i just figured everything had came out and that's why it was negative at the hospital. now i am currently 13 weeks pregnant.

When I heard the nurse say that i could have not been pregnant was a shock. More because I thought i was and i grieved like i was and to be told i wasn't was mind f***ing me. My job even gave me the week off.

But could i have been pregnant back in March and miscarried or i wasn't even pregnant to begin with???