I need stoner advice plz (sorry kinda long)

Let me start w a little background... My whole family except a select few people smoke or have smoked the herb and I've been around it my whole life so I'm no stranger. I didn't get big into smoking until age 18 when I met my husband who was a huge pot head (I'm 23 now) My brother sold edibles for years and grew a bit so I knew where my stuff was coming from most of the time. Long story short my husband stopped smoking bc he is an OTR truck driver now and they don't allow it. We both have had bad panic and anxiety attacks as well, he is currently on meds for anxiety and I'm not though I have had sever anxiety and panic attacks. Anywaysss I can't even handle that delta 8 stuff now.... I don't get high or even buzzed anymore, I go straight into a mode where I trip out and think my heart will explode and think I'm dying. It's happened the last four times I tried either smoking or taking delta 8. Y'all are probably like "then stop smoking/stop taking it" but I miss it y'all.... Like when weed used to make me feel good. Mind you, in the past maybe two years I haven't smoked a bowl or anything, I tried a dab pen (bad panic attack) a delta 8 pen (weird feeling) and delta 8 gummies which the last one I took a few weeks ago was fine at first (25mg) but eventually made me feel the same as the dab pen unfortunately. So I haven't smoked a bowl or joint or blunt or splif or anything. I tried smoking delta 8 but didn't smoke enough to feel anything tbh I don't think. My friend said she used to have panic and anxiety episodes from smoking but got on anxiety meds/blood pressure meds that literally fixed her.... I'm sure some of you know what I'm talking about I know plenty of people who have smoked weed or Delta 8 or whatever and have tripped but still smoke today and are fine. My brother, my sister, my best friend, my cousins, my sister-in-law, my mom, my uncle they all smoke every day like I used to and they are fine. I heard some people mix dried tea herbs in with weed and that helps but idk.... Any insight!?!? I also thought it could be from smoking everything except the straight up herb. Like the pens and gummies and delta 8 maybe don't work for me but maybe if I tried smoking straight up weed again it could work like it used to for me????

A side note is that when I started smoking the flower by itself in the first place it helped me be calm and I did have a bad panic attack that negatively affected me for weeks from a bad bong rip. But I smoked after that just fine just no big hits lol I still get nervous though. I can't vibe like I used to y'all... I'd rather smoke weed than get on any medication for anxiety/depression/panic attacks so I need helppp