Suffering from anxiety and depression

I been trying hard to become a firefighter covid hit so we lost almost 2 years I been so stressed out my parents are wanting me to get married or move out they been telling to go to a trade school I just feel so pressured I want to do what I want to but they don’t believe in me I’m so tired, being 21 with a minimum pay job in California I can’t survive by my own my boyfriend wants to move out to Indiana which he ask me if I wanted to go with him I said yet I feel stress of how am I supposed to tell my Hispanic parents I’m going to move out without getting married since they are really religious I been so stressed I been taking a lot of antidepressants! They don’t know about it at some point I feel like I can’t anymore I just can’t I hate my life so bad every day is the same story