Constantly on my mind😪

Hey guys, I’m literally tearing while typing :/

God entered this boy in my life mid February 2020 I thought nothing of it till I started catching feeling 2 months later. 2 months ago I told my myself & others by the time summer comes I need to stop this whole thing. So I been distancing my self which wasn’t hard at all. Then June came & his birthday was approaching I got really anxious. Though I still said it he replied with something like thank you sexy wyd. LIKE NO so it’s been a month without any real contact. I’ve tried moving on buttttt that’s dead cause I still love him😬 For the past 6 months he has been on my mind EVERY SINGLE DAY. Now I’m at a point where I’m tired of this. I know that everything happens for a reason but this unbearable. I wake and think about him. It’s just really bad in opinion & google is no help.