the process of a chemical pregnancy

Your excitement of getting a positive test comes with: the thought of what your baby will look like, if it’s a boy or girl, going through all the baby names you like with your husband, picturing your other babies as big brothers (or sisters). And then BOOM, just like that, you’re bleeding and no longer pregnant. You’re sad and feeling like your body let you down. You’re eager to try again, but terrified of it happening all over again. It’s hard.

I’m oddly thankful it was a chemical, because I’ve experienced two miscarriages (8 and 10 weeks) and those are devastating; physically, and mentally so painful. I’m thankful my baby didn’t have a heartbeat yet. I’m thankful I didn’t have to pass my baby and hold them in my hands. I’m thankful I’m able to get pregnant. I’m thankful I have two healthy baby boys. I’m thankful for so many things, but it still never makes it easier to lose your pregnancy.

3 days until my fertile window apparently. So, please pray we successfully get pregnant and can carry this baby full term. 💕