PLEASE IM NOT HERE TO BE JUDGED

Me and my son father were never on bad terms but he is a narcissist. We used to work together. Went first found out I was pregnant he disappeared when I was 5-6 months pregnant. Literally disappeared. Changed jobs, changed address and even phone number and never bothered to tell his family that he was gaveling a baby. 2 months after my son is born he re-emerges asking about the baby. I’m not a spiteful person I tried to allow to see if but every time ask when he’s come the day never came. My son was 1 when they first meet and next time after that my son was 3 .

His pattern of disappearing and reappearing when it is convenient for him became worse when he found out our son was autistic. Our son is now 7 and still don’t have a relationship with his father or his side of the family. I know he’s never told them and my issue was never with them. I know he’s never told them. I recently found out he’s having another baby with his girlfriend who also knows nothing about our child and still neither does his family. I’m frustrated because he seem so excited for this child on the way and won’t even come to see mine. My lost my father when I was young so I never wanted my child to be without a father . But he is actively denying the existence of my child and not sure what to do. I blame myself because I should have put him on blast to his family years ago. But I’m not sure what to do at this point.

I need some advices