What if I decide I don’t want to breastfeed…

I’m currently still in the hospital and will be here another 3 days due to a really traumatic labor and emergency c section.. baby is doing well though now. I wanted to breastfeed and i really wanted to try although I was told my nipples are on the flatter side and it could make it more difficult. Well that’s been true and the whole process of trying to get her to latch has been miserable and has absolutely destroyed me mentally already. And yes I have tried pumping, I’ve been trying everything and get barely a two drops of colostrum. My supply isn’t in yet but I have been feeding with a shield, but she is not wanting to latch well even with the shield and barely receiving a few drops of colostrum and is constantly fussy and acting like she needs to be fed, the hospital isn’t acting like they want to supplement and she’s losing a lot of weight quickly. I have made up my mind and I do not want to breastfeed any longer. I want my baby FED. But every nurse has backed me down or guilted me or just downright not listened to me and said, we’ll try this.. I’ve seen the lactation consultant multiple times now. I have made up my mind and do not want to be shamed anymore, anyone else felt this way and how do you make people understand you have made your mind up?? Do not shame me… fed is best and right now my baby is not being given what she needs but everyone seems so focused on breastfeeding they’re telling me she’s fine. I want her to be given formula so I know she’s getting something. How do you makes people listen when it comes to this? And why is okay to shame a mom on making this decision when her baby is ultimately still getting what they need with formula when they’re otherwise not?