Me & Bf Of Two Years Broke Up And Idk How To Cope

He wasn’t doing anything I wanted, always had an rn cause that he was trying and that he loved me. I’m sick of it. I want a relationship with meaning, I’m 23 and feel like I’ve gotten nowhere with relationships. And it doesn’t help I have baby fever like crazy right now, but anyways. We haven’t talked, said he wouldn’t message me anymore. And he hasn’t, kind of happy, BUT hurts my feelings at the same time. I tried talking to other people, but I get frustrated, sad and lonely and just stop responding. Although we just broke up, it’s been done. I moved about about 3 months ago but I’d still go over there from time to time. My feelings are just hurt because he hasn’t attempted to contact me, but I know if he does we will fall back in the same cycle. I was doing good! I wasn’t caring and yesterday I was just so sad and had a whole breakdown for an hour. First time Ive cried over this. I guess I’m just feeling real down today and needed to vent