Big baby!!

I’m right at 34 weeks now, but I went last week to the specialist to get another anatomy scan so they could see my baby’s growth and weight. She weighed 5.6 pounds. And the specialist decided that I need to go get weekly scans to monitor her weight. I have gestational diabetes and she said because I didn’t get my glucose test done when most do, it was already playing a part in her growth. But because they grow so much each week now, they’re worried she’s going to be really big and I’ll need a csection. Which is what they were trying to avoid in the first place. I’m beyond scared of trying to have her naturally if she’s really big based on the complications they told me could happen, and then obviously scared to have a csection. This is my first baby and I try to stay calm but it feels like every week I get all this new info. I have been in so much pain this past month and it feels like no one is listening to me. I can barely get out of bed, and I’ve told them all of my concerns. I don’t want her to come too early but I really don’t know how much longer I can take all of this. Between the physical pains and the mental stress I just feel really defeated. 😞