FAILURE 🥺😭💔

I have been TTC baby #3 FOR 4 years now! Reason for complications is I had a tubal ligation 2017 got it the clips off November 2019 and I had scar tissue so I took Serrapeptaste 40,000 units 4 daily. Never went to a specialist to see if they are unblocked! Let’s face it a Ferility doctor isn’t cheap. Especially for first appointments. I had recently 5 positive test 2 pink dyes 3 blue dye test. I just knew this was my month I guess not. Why do I keep having chemical pregnancies. I just started my cycle 4 days early which never happens if I’m not pregnant. I’m so jealous my little sister is pregnant and isn’t ready! But I cannot have another omg 😳 I just say forget it cause! 🥺😭🤦🏾‍♀️😔 I WANT ANOTHER BABY WHY IS IT SO HARD… and I think I’m not ovulating and my doctor won’t give me an ultrasound to see if I am or not.. SUCKS!!! 💔💔 and I think I’m going with IUI BECAUSE I GUESS IM NOT FIT FOR RELATIONSHIPS EITHER A FAILURE 💔🤎😩 Oh yeah I got the tubal ligation to please my mom, sister and grandma I regret everyday of my life 💔💔🥺😭☹️