I started super tiny I was 5’4 and 110lbs, and by the end of my pregnancy I was 153lbs. I gained so much weight and postpartum I’m 133lbs. I had body dysmorphia prepregnancy as is and now im struggling even more to accept my body. My tummy was cute and tight and it is no where near the same of course. Some days it’s whatever because my son distracts me from it. Other days I feel absolutely disgusting looking at a darker, flabby stomach. I have stretch marks that appeared that I never saw during the pregnancy. My hips, my lower back, things and I didn’t have tummy stretch marks when my belly was big but for some reason I do now?? I used oils and lotions during the pregnancy to avoid it and of course genetics couldn’t care less.

Now I’m using belly binders and corsets to try get my body back because I’m 3 week Postpartum. I can’t wait to be cleared by my OB for exercise so I can actually work on it. At the same time I’m terrified I’ll never look the way I want to to be happy.

Aside from that has anyone experienced issues with their spouse? I’m a SAHM and I watch my two puppies and my son everyday and my bf goes to work 9-7 5 days a week. Some nights I’m exhausted and can’t wake up to do the feeding or the diaper change, most times I can. Some nights I do it by myself because I feel bad since my bf worked all day, and I feel angry at him for not offering to help and sleeping through it but I let it go. HOWEVER, sometimes when it’s his shift and I can’t wake up- he gets pissed off. Has anyone had their s/o take their exhaustion or frustration out on you? Because my bf tends to take everything out on me when he’s exhausted and it usually ends in me crying. It makes it so much harder and I feel like I’m the only one, am I? I struggle with the thought everyday that I won’t be a good enough mother and gf as is, I feel so alone.

I also don’t have any friends or family in the state, so not much I feel I can do.