Pregnant and anxious for future

So I’m 19.. very young I know and I’m 18 weeks and 4 days pregnant with a baby boy 💙 I’m very excited for him to be a part of our lives but I’m also so anxious. I’m a person who’s really into selfcare.. I want the best skin care routine, hair care routine blablabla to become the best version of myself.. it just feels like I won’t be able to be that person anymore once I have my baby. No idea why I feel like that, it’s because I know it’s gonna be about him but I’m scared I won’t take care of myself the way I do right now. This pregnancy has hit me hard, I went from weighing 48kg to 40kg within 6 weeks because of the nausea. Now I went up to 43-45 kg because I’m not as nauseous anymore but my food routine is so bad.. I basically eat 1 piece of fruit per day, 1 meal and for the rest it’s snacking. Ice coffee has been a big craving so everyday I have a small cup of ice coffee (about 80-100 mg of caffeine in it) I’m just not satisfied with the way I live.. I feel like I’m stuck. I also just lay in bed for the rest of the day, I feel like I’m depressed. No motivation for anything and just anxious and worried about literally everything..

I just needed to vent a little bit.. 🙂