Sorry ladies, this is a long one…

I am a single 26 yr old born again Christian. I am not perfect and Ive done my share of mistakes. I met this Christian man on a dating app. He’s also born again and knows a lot about the Word. We agreed to take it slow, pray, and see where God takes us. We said from the start, that if we felt God say it was a no for us to be together, then we had to obey. We live 2 hrs away so it was a long distance thing. We got to know each other, read the Bible over the phone, sent scripture to one another, sent worship songs to one another, etc. I’ve never clicked so well w anyone. I continued to pray about it, as did he, and I felt like this was it. He was literally everything I had prayed to God for for years and I felt like it was an answered prayer. We confessed that we were developing strong feelings for each other and agreed to meet. We got to meet each other a few times.

And unfortunately, one thing led to another and we had sex. We knew it was wrong, said we’d never do it again. But then it happened… again. After that we felt ashamed and said that’s enough. But after that he said he felt God telling him this wasn’t it. (He’s a big over thinker) As much as he tried he felt like he was listening to his heart rather than God and thought it would be best to stay friends. I have to admit, there are things in my life, and his, that need to be worked on before committing to each other, or anyone. I’ve known this guy for 10 months and we just decided to be friends last week. We both feel at peace knowing that we can still stay friends but deep down I can’t shake the feeling that he’s the one.

I told God from the beginning, if he’s not the one please take him completely out of my life, but here he is. Still wanting to stay in my life. I can’t help but think “right person, wrong time”. I know what we did wasn’t right and that probably delayed the plans God had for us. But not once have I heard God tell me this wasn’t it, so why would he tell him that? Idk whether to patiently wait for him and see if God speaks to him, or to just block him and forget we ever had anything