How did you get over a breakup

Ladies, so long story short I had a miscarriage early on and never got my period again and got pregnant again and my BD blames me for it and thinks I set this whole thing up. I’m grieving a miscarriage and while trying to maintain my health for this pregnancy and he told me to get an abortion but I don’t want too. He kicked me out and told me if I contact him he’ll get a restraining order. I’m so heart broken. He won’t talk to me about anything. He won’t hear me out. I’m heartbroken over my break up. I’m heart broken over the miscarriage. I’m at a lost for words. Any words of advice would be greatly appreciated. Xoxo