Today I broke

Today I broke into pieces and the floodgates poured in.

I sat and waited, counting out the minutes.

I sat on my toilet with the test in my hands.

Praying to see another line appear.

I waited.

I stared.

Time passed.

One line stood there.

I checked lighting, took photos… nothing.

My husband asked me, “did you take the test?”

My voice cracked, tears poured, “not pregnant” I chocked out.

“Are you sure?” He asked.

I passed over the test and sobbed.

I count the months we waited. I cry over our loss. I wait for two pink lines to appear and to stay.

I grieve….

… and today I broke.