Defeated

I had my first Ivf cycle last year I had a fresh transfer which resulted in my son but I ended up going into preterm labor at 20 weeks and lost him.. I decided to try again and I’ve had 3 cancelled cycles and I finally ended up being able to transfer on the 19th of this month which resulted in what I feel and know is a chemical 🥺 I have my beta on Monday but I already know that’s going to confirm what I’ve been seeing on these test.. wishing everyone the best on their journey infertility fucking sucks