Loss of attraction

TW: talk of suicide.

I told my partner I’m not emotionally attracted to them anymore but that I wanted to work on our issues and find a way to fix everything so we can be a better couple. I’ve been feeling like this for a couple months. Our marriage hasn’t been the greatest at all. A lot of toxic things have happened. They have hurt me a lot and said/done things to me that’s hard to forgive, which in all made me lose attraction. I’ve been in therapy for it for a year now trying to help myself through it all. They got really upset and said that they didn’t want to be with me anymore because It was too late to fix things. I respected that but also begged that they stay with me and give me a chance. They moved all their stuff into a separate room, took down all the pictures of us in the house. then they said that I make them want to kill themself constantly. They left to go talk to their mom after that. They came back hours later and then started telling me they were just angry and upset and they said they really did wanna be with me. This is all confusing for me. Am I in the wrong? Do I deserve this? Is what they did okay? I just need opinions because I feel lost and like I deserved this.