a rant.

Sophie

i am 34w & 4d, i called my ob yesterday bc i had noticed a odor in my discharge so they made me an appointment for this morning.. i saw a different ob than my regular.. i get there & she tells me they will be canceling my next appointment & doing everything today. (keep in mind my ob office hasn’t had me pee in a cup, no swabs, last bloodwork at 28w, & last ultrasound was my 20 w anatomy scan).. they ask me to go swab myself which i did. i came back in the room & she goes to measure my belly . last appointment i was 32w & measured 32. She tells me i am measuring 27 weeks & asks me why my baby is so small (along w a lot of other unnecessary commentary) she begins the ultrasound & tells me the “baby has no fluid” i ask what she means & she says nothing.. she tells me to get dressed while she comes up with a plan. she comes back in & says she is sending me upstairs for monitoring & a growth scan “oh btw you have BV so im sending some antibiotics” i ask if my husband will be able to come w me because at this point i am very scared.. they tell me no (no extra guests are allowed at appointments bc covid). i get told i am going to be walked over.. next thing i know im in labor & delivery & the nurse checking me in asks if anyone is coming to be with me & this point i have no idea what is going on & i burst into tears telling her no & that i was just told he couldn’t come & we only have one car & he is at home! she tells me to see if he can get a ride. so he does . by the time he got there i was hooked up to all these monitors.. & waiting on radiology to be ready for my growth scan. i go and get it done & get brought back upstairs for more monitoring.. the charge nurse comes in & tells me the baby is small.. meaning 5lb 1/4oz.. not 8 weeks behind & that i have a low amount of amniotic fluid & that if it were any lower they would be looking at delivering the baby now.. long story short they sent me home after about 4 hours of a panic attack & gave me a list of things to look out for & my antibiotics.. also the charge nurse called my ob & told them they need to keep my appointment & not cancel it. i came home & slept for 4 hours. & i just don’t know what to think about today.. everything my whole pregnancy was essentially “perfect” until today :/ bv can cause low birth weight & preterm labor & so can having low amniotic fluid .. i can’t help but wonder how long i had this infection.. or how long i would’ve had it before they would’ve noticed.. i’m one tired momma