Am I wrong !?

IM GOING TO RANT!

Back story.

Im 17weeks pregnant with my 4th. I have a 4year old, 3 year old, & 9 month old.. (I know..) but im blessed 💕

My fiancé has a cleaning business, newish. We have one cleaner and then myself. At first he was doing all the cleaning & I was working else where. My job didn’t pay me enough to pay all the bills it paid one bill and then I had $0 until next pay check. It was just something for me to do at the time I was pregnant with my 3rd. One day he told me he was going to drop the business if I didn’t help and it’s the one that paid/pays the bills so after arguing. I quit my job to clean so we could afford everything and provide for the kids. Now im 17weeks pregnant and im so fed up with cleaning 3-4 houses a day by myself. I ask him for help and he refuses it’s world war 3 if I ask him to come help me clean a house. Im tired. Im a mom of 3 under age 5 and pregnant.. I clean houses, I pick kids up from preschool, I come home and clean, make dinner, bathe kids, snack time, packing school lunches etc then get them in bed. By that time I am putting the 9month old in bed he wakes up during the night still as well, after he’s asleep I clean up dinner and toys. I hardly have time to take care of myself.. im too exhausted. Like I said im 17 weeks, my feet hurt, my ankles hurt, my back hurts, and I cramp a lot (baby is fine) the constant bending and squaring kills me when cleaning houses and carrying everything in and out of their houses, stairs, room to room.. BY MYSELF! I just don’t get why it’s so hard for him to help? Come carry the supplies in, dust and clean showers.. anytime I refuse to do a house by I just physically can’t push myself anymore I’m the bad person. It’s always “I started this business for you and the kids and you don’t even care. I guess we won’t have money for bills” I’ve been doing all the cleaning, I make ad post to get more clients, I go shopping to restock supplies, I train people (who never stick around) while he sits at home, piddles around, spends money on dumb stuff we don’t even need or money we don’t have to spend. I mean I don’t get help at home hardly.. he said “he’s about to get the cat food” and walked away from our 9month old while I was making breakfast instead of picking him up away from the cat food… and it’s a struggle to get him to change his diaper or the cat box.. it’s a struggle to ask him to do dishes or laundry without arguing. Sometimes he’s nice and will clean house and it totally surprises me but usually if I say something about needing help in any aspect it’s always”I’m tired of the bitching” or “I’m tired I don’t feel good” well when I’m tired or if I’m sick I still don’t get help and the kids still need taken care of so who does that. Me. I leave every morning 7:45am drop kids off, go to clean, and after everything I’m home by 5-6pm.. while I come home and he’s asleep on the couch.. dishes still in the sick or toys scattered on the floor.. (last thing.. cat food is still scattered on the floor bc he never cleaned it up this morning..)

AM I CRAZY OR ??? Some drop your options!