so lately my fiancé just hasn’t been the same. he’d come home from work and have this excited energy around me, he’d make sure to go out of his way to do small gestures to just make me feel good. well, he doesn’t anymore. I’m currently 39 weeks pregnant tomorrow, and I go out of my way to do things like rub his back, make sure dinner is ready when he gets home, I make sure his days at work were good. I put myself completely aside to make sure that he’s happy. on the other hand, I’ve told him how bad of back pain I’ve had, how I need things like clothes for my growing tummy, and I’ve even been sick. he’s never rubbed my back, though I do his at least twice a week. he’s never bought me any maternity clothes, or things really at all unless it’s something I NEED like shampoo. and better yet, didn’t make me a meal while I was sick and super, uncomfortably pregnant. I had a ROUGH start to my year. my car got stolen with a bunch of my belongings in it. from there, he told me to just stop working, and focus on my pregnancy and my bachelors degree. i stay at home but am ALWAYS active, I typically don’t rest. meanwhile, I worked and supported us before my car got stolen. I feel very low of myself, not being able to support myself financially. but, I work hard on what I can and I feel like I get no rewards for it. he spends his paycheck on himself, stopped mentioning our future wedding, and my self esteem is just super low. I’ve mentioned my clothes and how I wear the same shit every other day, I’ve mentioned how awful my back hurts, I just wish he’d take initiative because the minute he tells me he’s in pain, I make sure he’s taken care of without any hesitation.