I've come to the realization that i fuck like a toxic man. By that i mean, i don't have sex because i feelings for the other person or even because im horny, I do it cus i can. Cus men are easy. It is a quick fix for my deeper loneliness that i have yet to confront fully. I dont like this about myself because ik most of the people i have sex with dont deserve it. Seriously. Not that im amazing in bed, i just mean like they dont take me on dates n they lie and yk typical fuck boy shit. I guess im disappointed in myself. I dont intend to stop soon tho. Ive tried before and after a year of abstinence im back on my bullshit. Thats how ik its not just a bad behavior, something is emotionally/mentally not satisfied.