BREAKDOWN

Last night I had a break down in front of my husband. All I could say is, “I want a baby, my baby”. I’ve been TTC for 5 years and suddenly, since we’ve medically started trying to have a baby (progrestrone & soon Clomid). But I can tell you, this feeling that I’ve been having is something that I’ve NEVER had before. It’s like the want of a child has increased a million times over and over.

In 2 weeks, I’ll be having another laparoscopic surgery to clean out endometriosis and check around. He will be checking my tubes, as well as shooting dye up my tubes to watch on an XRay machine to see if my tubes are clear or blocked.

I keep having this feeling that it’s soon when I conceive, also that it’s a girl. But I’m trying my damndest not to get my hopes up & I have no idea why I’m so strong on a girl.